"This is my renaissance (rebirth)
This is my one response
But I got to say now,
It's got to CHANGE"
Before I became a believer myself I always thought it strange that so many people "heard the call" and "said the prayer" at these "mass birthings", "revivals", and youth conferences, and then right back to doing exactly what they were doing before. I shouldn't have been suprised, I was baptized in water when I was 8, and again a few years later. I had made a public confession and said the sinners prayer out of a honest terror of going to hell (yes, the local Baptist Church was the only Church I knew of, and Baptists sell Fire Insurance in addition to their regular day job). They also do ALOT to help people in need, such as myself when I was 14 and didn't know where my shoes for winter were coming from, or my next meal.
Aside from saying the prayer, getting dunked in the water, and having an honest fear of my fire insurance policy not being any good because I never did my part in making the payments (a changed life), and reading the Bible cover to cover, I never really CHANGED.
I had a deposit, a drop of the Spirit, that provided enough light to keep me from walking off a cliff, but not enough to keep me from losing my way for the most part, from going down the dead ends and hitting all the potholes on the road to the Wedding Feast. Sure, somewhere deep I also felt some conviction, but it was rationalized away. It wasn't enough for me to turn around (repent), just enough to make me search the Bible for more loopholes.
The scariest part the whole time was the very word's of Jesus "Away from me your workers of Lawlessness, for I never knew you!" These words were being spoken to those who had performed miracles, healed the sick, raised the dead, founded television ministries, sold books, etc, etc. Ofcourse, as one of the 12 Apostles, Judas had done all of these things as well. I knew that if they were in trouble, I must really be in deep. I didn't even tithe, and like the sign above says, He isn't interested in your coins, He wants REAL Change.
Another thing that will keep you up at night, the words found in the Gospel of John "He who loves me will keep my Commandments", and we are also warned that if we don't do as the Father Commands, then the Father is not in us. I was also at this time, well aware of the many Commands being ignored by many Christians. While they found breaking the Sabbath, celebrating pagan holidays, and other things perfectly okay scripturally because their pastor said it was, I had a curse of knowledge. I knew that it was wrong, but I did it anyway.At least they could do as they wished on Sabbath out of ignorance and could probably be forgiven, they didn't know any better. When you know better, and do it anyway, then its grace abuse and comes to the point that no forgiveness remains.
Like alot of other things. Studying the Scriptures to find loopholes had only revealed more ways that I was hanging myself. Studying the Scriptures to prove Deism (a G-d that doesn't personally involve Himself in the lives of people) only proved that He was very involved, especially in the business of blessing and cursing. Especially in the business of taking care of hypocrites (my way around this was to simply not claim to be a Christian).
Finally I came to the admittance that Teshuvah (Hebrew for Repentance, returning to G-d's Law) must be made. While asking forgiveness with your mouth is one thing, actually changing is a whole other thing entirely. Just as Jesus says that if your brother offends you and REPENTS 70 times then you must forgive Him. The word He uses for REPENT isn't talking about a verbal "I'm Sorry" its talking about actual change. I realized thataccident forgiveness is granted not when we quote our life insurance policy number (an out of context verse) to heaven's prayer line, but we actually REPENT and change our ways to match G-d's Ways and start driving the vehicle of life like we care if we wreck, which hurts us and others, and is an offense to the one who paid for the damages the last time. If we can't handle our earthly clunkers, what kind of vehicle can He trust us with in heaven, the kiind we will have for eternity (Matthew 5:17-19).
The difference between Fire Insurance and Blessed Assurance is seen in the 2 words for "To Hear". In Greek, Akousia (like Acoustic) means to physically hear when sounds waves hit your ear. In Hebrew, the language Jesus spoke, they say "SHEMA". Shema means to "hear and obey", because Hearing G-d without obeying Him is almost inconceivable. If you heard and didn't obey, then you must not have known the voice of the one who was speaking (Just like Paul's Companions who heard thunder). The "Shema" is also a prayer found in Deuteronomy 6, that declares that there is only one G-d, and He is above all, so we must Hear and Obey Him. Jesus also quotes it as the Greatest Commandment "Hear O Israel, the Lord is G-d, the Lord is ONE."
I challenge you to hear (Shema), G-d's Words in the Bible, obey His Commands so that you may blessedif you are a believer and not have your rewards lessened in heaven (Deuteronomy 30, Matthew 5:17-19) and not bring a curse on the nation such as more terrorism and debt ( Levitcus 26)
We can give to the Church, and go through the motions, appearing to be changed, but unless our heart is changed, then our "Fire Insurance' is not yet in effect and everything can still burn.
Its not our COINS He seeks, He seeks CHANGE. Giving the Coins simply Changes us, because it breaks our attachment to that which is not G-d, but is only treated as such. The blessing comes not from giving our "love offering" but in giving an offering of Love, expressed by change,a broken and contrite heart.
"Renaissance" by Mat Kearney (Nothing Left to Lose) Listen and Watch:
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Lyrics: Rennaissance
This is my renaissance
This is my one response
This is the way I say I love you
This is my second chance
This is my one romance
This is the cutting line
On which I stand to show you
It happened fast in a flash, just this evening
As I hit the gas, horn blast, brakes were screaming
As the car crashed, broken glass, broke my dreaming
I hit the dash, so fast my ears are ringing
My sister's on the right side just slightly leaning
I grabbed her hand hard until she started breathing
My brother's in the back, jaw cracked from the beating
The breath in my chest has slipped and I'm sinking
Blinking through diamond spider webs of cracked glass
I'm trying to remember all the words you said in the past
Through the ash, siren screams and red beams
I hear you sing softly to me
CHORUS:
I can be the wall when you fall down
Find me on the rocks when you break down
I heard it in the song when you call out
But I got to say now it's got to change (x2 this time)
This is my broken heart
This is my bleeding start
This is the way I've come to know you
This is my winding road
This is my way back home
This is the narrow door you know that I will walk through
I got a letter today of why she went away
She said, "It's better this way, you knew I never could stay."
Half empty closets and frames, all that's left to my name
As she left in the rain and left my heart on a chain
Three years I've built this two-face tower for hours on a lease
You gave me one yellow flower that said rest in peace
In pieces I've broken open to think too much or just enough
Alone to trust midst the rubble and the dust
Humbled, it took this much to break down and understand
Spent my life this far on castles made of sand
Tossed in the breakers in the palm of your hand
Now I can finally stand
(CHORUS x4)
I can be the one
I heard it in the song
And I can be the one
I heard it in the song
This is my renaissance
This is my one response
This is the way I say I love you
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